Elfie and Snowflake

Hello again friends,

Sorry for the snafu yesterday. My WordPress upgrade on my sites crashed them all, but thankfully Bluehost was able to restore everything. That said, meet Elfie and Snowflake.


Snowflake is the lady in the skirt, and Elfie we have had the pleasure of knowing three years now. Erin loved Elfie very much, so much that she would cry every year when he would go back to the North Pole. She really wanted a friend for him and so last year we bought Snowflake (she named them both, of course). Snowflake ordered herself another skirt, but sadly she never got to wear it. I know both of them miss Erin very much, as much as she missed them. She wrote about Elfie more than once in her journal.

I only had the courage just yesterday to invite them back, and will request that they go live permanently in Erin’s room now. I know she visits her room from time to time because we hear her, and she will be thrilled to see them.

We leave in the morning for our trip, and so I may not post for a few days. While I won’t be able to enjoy the magic of Christmas, I hope that those of you who will be able to will remember Erin on the 25th. She so loved Santa and the magic of the holidays. It just won’t be the same without her.

Erin’s Mommy aka Ms. Nicole


Hello friends,

I have not posted as much as I would like because it has been extremely hard this time of year without Erin. But I do have some positive updates to share.

I continue to be amazed at how people are wearing the wrist bands to honor Erin’s memory. It warms our hearts to see friends old and new wearing them. Here is a picture of our cousin Ford P. wearing his at work in Starkville, MS. You may recognize him from a picture shown at Erin’s service, where he was holding her at his high school graduation.


Also, Mrs. Ellett, librarian at HCES, asked me to send additional bands last week so that they could give them to all of the 5th grade girls. I was happy to do so, but don’t know what her plan is, so if you are waiting on one it may be when school returns. I am still mailing them out, though, so feel free to ask for one or more. Just tell me where to send them, what color (Blue or Purple), and what size (L or M). The mediums fit most adults and children, but some with larger wrists or hands may want a large.

I couldn’t find where I posted here, but on my website I know I posted about the fur baby Alyssa, who Friends of Rescue named while she was their foster in honor of Erin (they had already named a little kitten Erin). Well, Alyssa was adopted over the weekend and her new family decided to keep her name after hearing Erin’s story. They also live in Hampton Cove, so if you know anyone who has a new doggie named Alyssa, please hug and thank them for me. Here is a picture of her in her new home.


Oh how Erin would have loved all of this! It still amazes me how she has touched so many. I hear new things every day and it seems that her death only increased the light she shined on the world. I can assure you that consciously, she had no idea how she affected people. She was such a sweet soul, and often stuffed her emotions because she felt so deeply. Thank you to everyone who loved and who loves her. Your love will help us to get through our first Christmas without our Angel Erin.

Erin’s Mommy aka Ms. Nicole

Thank You for your Sentiments about Erin!


Just want to share some things posted specifically about Erin on my FaceBook wall on Erin’s birthday (12/11/2014). They were too kind and loving not to share with you.

From Sherri D:


I hope there’s someone up there
Looking after you
I hope there’s someone there to care
doing things you like to do

This is the first birthday
Not spent here with Mom & Dad
I hope in some little way
They are making a bit of a fuss

So here I am saying a prayer
To whoever is looking after you
Please take very good care of Erin
As she is a special little girl.

Thinking of you today Nicole.

From Angie S:

“…Know that we love and miss your precious Erin, with the long curly black hair, the sweet smile, & the high pitched voice. I miss her being in my home, playing, laughing and doing funny voices with AK. I miss kidding her about, “Who ate my mushrooms?!” I don’t know if I’ve ever shared that story with you.
I’m thankful that the last year of her life we were able to make some awesome memories at the beach, American Girl, the aquarium and that she finally got to visit IL.
Missing that sweet baby today & everyday. …”

This is from Carla W. It is very true and we love Erin so much still, that I want to share it.


These were just a few, but thank you for your kind words, and I hope you don’t mind me sharing with others.


Happy 11th Birthday, Erin

Today would have been Erin’s 11th birthday. We miss her so much that it hurts, but we still want to share her with everyone. Please remember Erin on her birthday today by wearing your wristband, posting with #missingerin, sharing your memories, or in some other way that brings a smile to your face. We miss our baby very much and while we know she is OK wherever her little spirit is, we are so sad without her.







Three of Erin’s Friends Release Balloons, and Letters

I have waited all week to post this, mostly because of the upwelling of emotion that I have every time I think about it. I received an email from a parent of one of Erin’s school friends over the weekend. The three girls had done a balloon releasing ceremony, and included cards with what I assume are note written to Angel Erin. (I call her that now…picked that up from Angel Sammy’s page on FaceBook.)

Here are the pictures, and thank you so much Lydia C., Abby C., and Nina H. You are sweet girls and I will never forget your kindness. And PS: Erin liked the three of you very much.



Memories – Please Share Yours!

After reading a holiday dealing with grief post from The Grief Toolbox, I decided to create a Your Memories page so that you all can (hopefully) share your memories of Erin with me and her dad. Her birthday is coming up December 11, and she so loved the holidays. It would be a great gift for both of us, and for her friends and other family who are reading.

Just click the link above, or go to the menu across the top. And if you miss the holidays, I will take memories or pictures any time! Thank you in advance for sharing and loving Erin along with us.

Erin’s Mommy

Erin’s Pet Supply Drive


I am so pleased to announce this! Simone H’s mom Melissa has organized this supply drive in honor of Erin on what would have been her 11th birthday, December 11, 2014. The above is the flyer, and the picture is of Erin holding Buffy in her backpack.

On that note, I received a note over the weekend from Friends of Rescue, and in addition to the kitten that they named Erin in her honor, another foster has named a puppy Alyssa, which was Erin’s middle name. And I received a lovely picture from them of Opal, who has found a home but who was helped by the funds raised for them back in August. She would love being able to help animals. Both her and my tender hearts kept us from volunteering at the shelters, but we helped out how and when we could.

I miss Erin so much that it hurts, but I am so glad that some good is coming out of her life. She had such a kind and tender heart, and she would be so happy that little furry babies are getting loved and the help they need.

Erin’s Mommy
Ms. Nicole

Wristband Update

For anyone who wanted a wrist band or wants one, I still have medium in purple (fits my wrist and most wrists), and the large size purple and blue ones just shipped today. I have a stack to mail today so please email me your address, which size, which color(s) and how many and I will send to you. This is something that I want to do and so if you want one, don’t be shy. I’ll also be taking a batch over to HCES when I get them in. Well, I may have to send them by someone. Not sure if I’m ready to go to the school just yet 🙁

Don’t forget to use #missingerin if you want to actively remember Erin on your social media.

Erin’s Mommy (Ms. Nicole)

Pebbles of Love

I have to admit that I sort of ripped this post title off from a friend who writes a blog, Lisa Gawlas. Here is a link to her article by that name. It really struck me when I saw it yesterday, because Erin used to pick up pebbles everywhere. And she would keep them! I used to find pebbles in all of her drawers, and found one in my purse on Sunday along with an “eyeball” rubber ball of hers that I have had for so long I don’t remember how or when it made it into my purse. I bet if I had the courage to go into her room right now, and look in her clothes drawers, I would find at least one pebble. I admit that I don’t have the courage to do that just yet, but I am confident that there are pebbles there.

I also used to find acorns. She and Simone H. used to collect acorns from the playground at HCES. There were no mature oak trees near our home, and anyway, they would collect them and acorns would also make it home and into my purse, and her drawers, and elsewhere. Last year before Halloween, they had a sleepover and had this elaborate plan to paint the acorns orange. We visited Hobby Lobby and got paint, and they painted their acorns but never did anything with them. Here is their sleepover plan. I found it with her stuff.


And yes, the orange acorns are still in somewhere in her room. I suspect that I will never get rid of them.

Just wanted to share this little pebble of love <3  #missingerin

Touching Tributes

As I mentioned the other day, Hampton Cove Elementary is setting up a reading area in the library in honor of Erin. I really didn’t expect anything more than the shadowbox of pictures that Mrs. Ellett mentioned, and maybe a table and bookshelf. So I was even more touched and honored when Simone H’s mom sent me a picture of the tree they are building. Simone is helping, and is pictured. The lighting was bad – one day I will try to get a better one.


By the way, Simone H. was Erin’s other BFF. She was blessed with two, and loved them equally and uniquely. How lucky is that? Many never even have one BFF in their lifetimes.

As a mom missing my child, you can’t imagine the comfort and joy that it gives me to find out about these types of things. Even the smallest thing can bring me some joy. Joy is hard to come by. I miss Erin today so much, I have cried and cried. So anyway, thank you HCES. She hated having to go and sit and learn, like all kids, but she loved her school and her friends and teachers. And most of all, she loved to read.

You would think that the Tree would be pretty outstanding, but look what I was tagged in today on FaceBook after giving some wrist bands to one of my best and oldest friends, Dawn Roth…


That is the entire Roth clan. Just the fact that anyone wears these wrist bands, is sweet and amazes me. But this…this is amazing and has touched me deeply. Thank you Roth family.

The interesting thing about Erin’s life is that the Roth’s barely knew her. Life gets in the way, you know, and we just didn’t see each other very much. But her light both in life and in her death has touched many. It’s little solace, but amazing nonetheless. I may be grieving, but I am not blind.

I plan to share via blog post as many days as I can to honor Erin’s memory, but I will probably keep my grief journey located on my website Bluestarhome.net. It’s heavy stuff, and I want this site to be more about celebration and appropriate for kids and adults alike.

Hugs and blessings,
Erin’s Mommy aka Ms. Nicole